YOU MIGHT HAVE NOTICEDJul 26, 2022
I'm posting more on social media these last 10 days than I have done in years! There are many reasons for this, one of which is I'm working with a new business mentor, and she is challenging me to find my edges in how I become available for my clients.
Challenging me to show up, shine out and commit to my mission so I become even more unstoppable in my rising and inspire other women to discover their magnificence, power and essence too.
During the last 2 years I have deeply engaged with mentors, tutors, shamans and guides to help me re-create myself and my life.
I decided to take this somantic, holistic and embodied approach (rather than traditional talk therapy) when I found out the breakdown of my second marriage was due to narcissistic and emotional abuse.
I FIND THIS EDGY AND DIFFICULT TO SHARE
I was determined to not be a victim of this deep emotional abuse that so profoundly broke me down. I immediately knew I had to start embodying change and fight to keep my heart open through it all – because I had learned from the inner work I had done so far, that these are the times that women die inside, shut down to love and become bitter towards men. I was not going to let this be my reality.
I fell to my knees and vowed to love even more!
The first step was to recognise that I was a victim of abuse. Own this, but not become it, and take responsibility for radical changes so deep inside, that I would never be a victim of this level of abuse again.
This has been the most profound journey of my life. I knew that before I could make any significant changes on my outside life, I had to go inside, and I was prepared to go all the way.
SO I DID
I WAS BETRAYED BY MEN
SO I DECIDED TO HEAL WITH MEN
THE WAY IN WOULD BE THE WAY OUT
I educated myself on all the ins and outs of toxic relating, narcissism, emotional abuse, on all sides, masculine and feminine, victim and perpetrator. All of it.
AND I WORKED WITH MEN
I chose to get ripped apart by the reality of the impact of toxic patriarchy on the feminine and all the insidious hidden toxicities that play out in men and women relating.
I chose to come face to face with personality profiles and honest exposure of all the toxic behaviour inside of the relationship. It fitted perfectly; I think this was the most shocking thing of all, because it meant coming to terms with the radical honesty that my relationship and marriage for the last 6 years was all based on a lie.
Firstly, I was immobilised and became physically ill as this penny dropped and my body could finally start releasing, not only the abuse but the truth that I was exposing and all the layers that came with it.
Early on I knew I was not in a process of grieving the loss of the relationship, I was in a profound and traumatic process of grieving the loss of myself in the relationship and beyond, and I was now on a quest to find myself again.
I was now in a state of deep healing and reclaiming my essence - if I chose to accept and work through it consciously.
I was determined to not be defeated. I worked on this daily, non-stop, every single day for 2 years.
I was determined to reclaim my inner wholeness as a woman, with the union of my inner healthy feminine and inner healthy masculine. All the dark and all the light.
THIS HAS BEEN A PART OF MY JOURNEY
NOW TIME TO RE-SURFACE
Then, there comes a day, when there is nothing more to be found in the deep caverns of the underworld at this time, even the shadows down there don’t scare me anymore. So much light has been shone in the dark that the daemons and gatekeepers are asking for new jobs.
Emotional abuse not only tries to sever you from your heart, it tries to shut you up and keep you small. So coming out and sharing myself, my passion, my love, my mission, my essence is a vulnerable process.
But I know I am very strong to have got through, mainly on my own in the deep caverns, with the deep guidance from within, then sometimes surfacing for a guiding hand.
ONLY YOU CAN DO IT – BUT YOU DON’T HAVE TO DO IT ALONE
I know I have so much gold to share from my experience as I feel the essence of Joan of Arc surging through my blood – she who shall not be defeated and in the name of love!
WHY DO I SHARE THIS?
Creating a new life is an incredible process and I am stunned everyday in this incredible process of discovering my self and my voice again.
Part of my mission is to guide women who have been through lots of change and/or loss. When they are ready to re-create their life, I show them how to super-charge radical change by learning how to take responsibility for journeying deep inside and then transmuting what you find into life-force to create a new reality for yourself. This is the ancient magic of the deep feminine come alive in this lifetime.
What I share with you comes from over 20 years of mastering my work.
THIS IS THE SOVEREIGN JOURNEY
If you would like to work with 1:1 with me, I have a Mentorship program and if you like to journey in a group for a year join my Mastermind program.
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